Guilt

I've never felt so guilty--it's there every day I wake up. I think it would be easier in some ways if I had just died. I think that's one reason I'm rehabbing so fast. Completely independent to completely dependent in the blink of an eye. So not cool. For anyone involved. I ruined sooo many lives. Lets just keep this quick so I do the least damage to all of us. I'm reallllly going to need therapy--I don't know how much more I can fake. I'm starting to feel like I'm playing a part.