Mood Swings

I hate the emotional lability. I've come to tentative terms with the rest but not that. Can I wear a frigging sign with "emotional lability" and the definition. Hello. Don't stoop to my level. I have almost no control!!! Yes, I friggin hate it!!!!! I was probably bipolar before--this isn't exactly helping!!! Seriously--no real control!!! Oh wait, that's how it's always been. I can't take much more "recuperation." I'm back to wishing that I just frigging let myself die that day--it would be horrible but short for my caregivers and friends. All the way around I'm just bad news--made everyone's life hell. Why didn't that occur to me all those hours I hung on...