Catch-up

I've been really bad about keeping up on this blog. It's been slow, but with some dramatic highs and lows, particularly being denied SSDI. I had a physical for that, which was pretty run of the mill. About a month ago, I got thrush again; I went through a week's course of Diflucan, and my speech therapist thought I still had it, I went on Klack's Solution for 14 days. She thought I still had it, so I finally saw the ENT. Turned out, I just have a geographic tongue. Definitely beats a messed-up immune system!

I still fight the fatigue every day, but my endurance is getting slowly better. My speech is also really improving after seeing the therapist twice a week for just over a month—my swallowing has also improved—I went from choking a couple of times a day to choking only every other day or so. My therapist has been using the Vita Stim—I really think it helps a lot. I know the effectiveness of Vita Stim/e stim is hotly debated, but I firmly believed that it has played a big role in waking up my muscles.

I'm trying not to think about the SSDI denial, but when it does sneak in my brain, it still makes me really angry. Thank goodness for my family—without them, depending solely on the government, I would be homeless. In all fairness, though, the county has really pulled through with DFA, Medicaid, and food stamps. As to working, I've been wracking my brain about suitable jobs. Yes, everyone tells me you get denied,then usually qualify through an appeal with a lawyer, but appeals take 2-3 years. Unless I can think of a brilliant scheme for making my first million, that's 2-3 more years of mooching off my parents. I'm 31—mooching is just too sad!

Ah, well, I get a little better every day. It could be so much better, but it could be so much worse!